Before getting back to writing about other topics, I feel a responsibility to you, my audience of budding psychics and those who wish to know more about the metaphysical, to briefly address why I took an extended break from posting during the last two months. I’ve been on a nonstop roller-coaster ride of ups and downs - a crash course in initiating me with both what being a lightworker means and the energy that is required for it. It’s been both the best of times and the worst of times, as our dear Charles Dickens would say. :)
I fell for a trap that most mystics/mediums/high-vibe types tend to fall into as they are transforming: my ego felt that these gifts gave me the authority to resolve all the issues of my past (work, relationships, etc)...to clean house, so to speak. It only caused more problems and I needed to take the time and space to reflect on how I can find a healthier balance between my development as a spiritual teacher as well as continue the progress of my own spiritual path, which is separate.
An important life lesson was rehashed for me at the same time as I’ve been seeing a measured increase in my telepathic and claircognizant perceptions. A person can have all the awareness and positive intention in the world, but if the other is not in a position to receive it, the energy is wasted.
Part of the reason we fall into this trap is because spirit doesn’t deal in time (a common understanding is that we live in a quantam universe where everything in our lives has already occurred). In some cases I was communicating with friends as I conceived of their energy in the future after I saw clear visions of us working together and living out happy experiences. I’m rather new to this, and I know now that I was so caught up in discovering my “psychic brain” that I was not seeing these people under the conditions they are living at this very moment (during this crazy pandemic crisis which is an unprecedented level of crazy for everyone). In my training and exploration, I got to a point where I became confused between my visions and actual reality.
I’ve come to learn that this is part of “cutting your teeth” for a medium as he/she learns how how their gifts work. Just like any other skill…you learn by failing and trying again, over and over. Providing daily tarot readings for my Mom and others has helped me practice differentiating between these two completely different head spaces…and through consistent practice I am refining and understanding how to identify them faster.
A wise friend told me (and I can see it ever so clearly now) that half the battle of being psychic is taming the ego which knows what coming, but cannot predict when. Time is an impossible to conceive of…it's just not part of the package of being human….even if the human in question has the natural ability to see far beyond the ordinary. Ego is essential in driving our ambitions, but the less ego you have, the more aware (or psychic) you are. The reason masterful mediums are able to tame their ego so easily is because they have gone through the trial/error process long enough.
I hope to reconnect with family members and friends who I am unable to at the present time because of our different circumstances, so I will continue to pray for that intention and send it up to the universe to decide on the timing. That is all we can do in these types of situations and I wish them the best on their path.
My beautiful church in Jersey City, NJ has re-opened (where I am music director) and I am back in the swing of a semi-normal life, employing my guides in all aspects of life including when I make music. It’s a night and day approach from how I used to live and I have to say that the results have been dramatic and stunning. I’m now ready to direct more energy towards you! We were up to a readership of 50 states and 26 countries at the time of my last posting in May, so I’m brainstorming ways of getting this community off the ground through collaboration and communication virtually. Please feel free to share your ideas with me if you’re interested in helping. If you were among those who followed me daily, I apologize for the sabbatical. I have too much on my plate to commit to posting every day as I’m continuing to find balance, but I will aim to write as frequently as I can from this point onward. If interested, you can also follow me on Instagram and Facebook.
For the entire month of August, I am offering donation based voice lessons and tarot readings. Simply pm me on Facebook or use the contact form on my website to get in touch to schedule. I wish everyone reading my blog peace, love, calm, and stillness.